Assalamualaikum wbt

Today, is 12 nov 2015.
Kinda weird tho. Its been yeaaarssssss since my laat posting
i dont know what makes me to write back


By the way, just to share something. About my new life. To cut it short,Ive been happily married to a good guy, the guy you see on my blog (very often), and its going to be 2 years mark on feb nex year.

Xtau nak share apa lg
So till we meet again (ntah tahun bila agaknya 😅)

Assalamualaikum

wake up with a smile

Today i woke up for sahur like usual
saying him morning like usual
but there's something about today, which my smiles permanently stay from 5 a.m until now :)

He texts me
He says, "today is 3 years mark!"
ohhh..yaa..i almost forgot.
Today is our anniversary ! :)

06082010 - 06082013

Sayang,
hoping this loveship will lasts forever
blooms with happiness all the way
get through up and down
and most importantly, hoping our loves always grow stronger each time
Hope our loveship will be end like fairy tales, HAPPILY EVER AFTER

Love you darling :)

What is life?

Life is about learning
Learning process
That you never expect worst thing would come into your way
That you never thought thing you think wont happen but happen eventually
So as what the time will goes on, so will your life
Life must go on
You fall , you hurt, and you learn how not to fall and hurt anymore
even if you fall again, it doesnt hurt you so bad
Seriously, I never thought that some of the reason i stand up today is the reason that why i dont want to live yesterday
Life..is always unexpected
As your age numbers adding up to 1 year by year, life gets harder and harder
Well. you just gotta said " life must go on "

Haze is back? oh really?

Assalamualaikum

sayang-sayang
 :)

sekarang ni nampaknya jerebu kembali...
yang mana the first jerebu haritu dapatlah merasa cuti sekolah sehari
(itupun baru je ganti last week)
jerebu is coming back!
as the last time i had a severe sorethroat and almost got flu because of the worst surroundings
hoping this time takdelah teruk sangat
malas nak bercuti-cuti ni sebab nanti kena ganti


mood now : 3 petang still dalam bilik guru. kerja banyak tapi tak gerak pun. now ending up writing nonsense stuff on the blog. haih

scene : Putrajaya during the first haze

Something about 2013

Insya Allah
something big is coming the way
hanya berharap Allah memberkati apa yang akan berlaku nanti
berharap Allah akan mudahkan segala urusan yang telah dirancangkan
Insya Allah
Amin

"I Knew You Were Trouble"

[Music video spoken part:]
I think--I think when it's all over,
It just comes back in flashes, you know?
It's like a kaleidoscope of memories.
It just all comes back. But he never does.
I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen.
It's not really anything he said or anything he did,
It was the feeling that came along with it.
And the crazy thing is I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again.
But I don't know if I should.
I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright.
But I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?
Maybe he knew that when he saw me.
I guess I just lost my balance.
I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him.
It was losing me.

Once upon a time a few mistakes ago
I was in your sights, you got me alone
You found me, you found me, you found me
I guess you didn't care, and I guess I liked that
And when I fell hard you took a step back
Without me, without me, without me

And he's long gone when he's next to me
And I realize the blame is on me

'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
'Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

No apologies, he'll never see you cry
Pretend he doesn't know that he's the reason why
You're drowning, you're drowning, you're drowning
Now I heard you moved on from whispers on the street
A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be
And now I see, now I see, now I see

He was long gone when he met me
And I realize the joke is on me, yeah!

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
'Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

And the saddest fear comes creeping in
That you never loved me or her, or anyone, or anything, yeah

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
'Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in (you were right there, you were right there)
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble

[Music video spoken part:]
I don't know if you know who you are until you lose who you are.

I dont know I just love this song .. hehe. Not a good second entry for 2013 right? hehe. 

Welcome mr.abandoned blog to 2013

Assalamualaikum warhamatullahi wabarrakatuh

Its been so long, since I abandoned you...sorry blog..
So today nak refresh back this blog
My last post is on June, 2012..that means i left you almost a year.. and i am so so sorry
I promise to "feed" you back...
I am deeply truly sorry..
If you thirst of needs, of loves, of my writings...
I promise to write back, alright? ;)

Till my next writing then.. 

see you again love :)

Takut :(

Takut nak mengadap hari esok :'(
For the first time ever in my life, Ive been at this bottom of an ocean
Big case, total drama, whats gonna happen tomorrow, only GOD knows :'(..

Istikharah yang ditakuti

Its been so long ago I want to do Istikharah
Mahu juga I untuk tahu betul ke pilihan I ni
Sebab kalau betul , kenapa terasa banyak betul kesasarnya
Sebab kalau betul, kenapa sakit betul bahu nak pikul banyak beban akibat daripada pilihan yang hati I sendiri buat
Kenapa tidak saja I serahkan semuanya kepada tangan DIA ?
Kenapa tidak saja I buat istikharah itu?
Kerana takut pada keputusan DIA ?
Takut pilihan hati salah?
Tapi you tak takut ke yang pilihan hati u tu tak bawa bahagia pun pada you, tapi sengsara je yang you dapat macam sekarang ni
Hey ! ini soal masa depan you !
Bukan cerita 2-3 jam lepas tu the end
Kenapa you nak teruskan korbankan diri u ?
Kenapa you nak teruskan sakiti hati you ?
Kenapa you nak bazirkan airmata you lagi, lagi dan lagi sekali ?
Tapi itu pilihan hati I
I kenal hati I
I tahu hati I ni ..

Hurm..
Takkan nak kena buat istikharah untuk tentukan sama ada perlu buat istikharah atau tak pulak ?

Pfft !

Based on this (lihat di bawah)

Sorry, the name and pictures and my friends all need to be under secret because I have this crazy-stalker-yg-tak-faham-bahasa sibuk nak stalking and wonder around asking about my fon number.

You go to hell bro !

Try your bestest to catch me !

Its not that i hate you, BUT I HATE YOU VERY MUCH !

Keep my word.

pfft. 

Actually bukan stress sbb stalker pon

Tapi..stress sebab... entahlah

Macam-macam dalam kepala

2,3 hari ni asyik fkir hal ni je

KAHWIN

Nenek tak sihat, so dia sangat berharap...dia tak cakap, tapi sy tahu...

Sy cucu sulung. Sy anak sulung. Everyone knows me and they are waiting for me

Kesian my family ....... nak buat macamana :'(

pfft.

Buang masa je masuk blog tapi tulis benda merepek ni

pfft again.

Takde isi duh -_-

Ok, nak tdo

Kbai!

Di malam yang stress, aku bersuara

Theres so much to write actually
Since its been quiet long Ive never had chance to write
(if even I did have chance,I might not have mood to write)

Many things had happened actually since i 'left' this blog empty
Things happend bukan maknanya bad thing yang jadi..tapi lebih pada aktiviti penting-penting for example i had visited Ain Jamil's newborn bby girl..aww..comels hokeh :D !
Tapi sorrylah, ade mood nak tulis tapi takde mood nak haplod gamba la pulek. Hehe

Itu cerita tentang newborn baby, nak cerita pasal kawan kawin pulak
Pergh, macam biasalah, umur-umur menggatal macam ni, memang tak menang tangan nak pegi kenduri kawen
(alah, macam sy pegi pon kan. haha XP)
Kalau kumpul all the wedding cards, I can earn more than 10 bugs by selling them to da recycle company :P
Punye lahhhhhhhhhhh banyakkkkkkk kad kawen yang den dapat
And paling best, setiap satu kad yang datang, akan menyebabkan satu titik stress dalam hati
Sebab apa? Sebab paham-pahamlah..
Umur dah tua
Mak abah kita pun dah tua
Tau dah, dalam hati dorg tu nak sangat tengok kita naik pelamin
Tapi.. belum sampai rezeki kan.. hihii
So, tak payah nak stress-stress sangatlah dengan benda macam ni
Senang cakap jeh kat mak, kalau mak nak sangat ada menantu apa kata mak tolong carikan jelah..mak pun tak stress kan.. hehe
Kalau mak nak akak cari sendiri, mak kenalah bersabar ye.. Banyak perkara menjadi penghalang, antranya akak berHAJAT nak continue master. (HAJAT je ada, taktaulah bila nak bergerak., hehe)
tapi perkara-perkara ni memang ada dalam perancangan.. Mak doakan jelah yang terbaik ye :))))

Mak aih..bukan ke kat atas ni nak cakap psl wedding kawan -_-
Last-last turned out talking about myself . pfft. LOSER !
Okeh, tutup cerita
And then Fatah pun adalah datang sekali dua
Sekrang ni dah jarang Fatah datang sebab dia dah semakin busy
Banyak kerja dia buat
Yelah, dah dewasa, semua perkara nak pakai duet, so tak salahlah kalau dia nak buat banyak kerja (where I think he should pun, kena kumpul duet kan nak kawin :p. OK, kidding, before kumpul duet nak kawen, ada banyak lagi perkara perlu diselesaikan. :)
Nak photo ??
Sorylah..photo malas nak upload .. hehe
Serius ada mood nak tulis je ni..photo-photo malas upload.

Okehla korang-korang,
sy nak masuk tdo
Jum basuh kaki berjemaah
Nanti takdelah antu kacau secara berjemaah jugak XD

Tata darlings yang gagah nak baca entry merepek ni ye..
Smooches! :-*

Anak bestfriend. Ini taktik mintak berkat dapat anak sendiri nih. :D

10 Sikap Wanita IDAMAN Si Dia

10 SIKAP WANITA IDAMAN LELAKI MASA KINI

WAJIB TAHU..

1. Sikap Keibuan – Banyak lelaki yang terpikat pada wanita yang bersikap keibuan, lembut, mengambil berat dan penuh kasih sayang.

2. Keanak-anakan – Dalam batas yang wajar, sifat keanak-anakan seorang wanita menjadi daya tarikan di mata lelaki. Mereka terasa terhibur dengan keletah anda, tetapi tentulah bukan sifat keanak-anakkan yang melampau dan menyakitkan hati.

3. Penuh Pengertian – Sikap pengertian wanita membuat lelaki berasa dihargai dan diterima seadanya. Sikap ini tercermin dari perasaan mudah memaafkan.

4. Menghargai – Wanita yang menghargai lelaki adalah wanita idaman lelaki. Berbeza dengan wanita yang suka di perlakukan dengan lembut, lelaki suka dihargai, dipuji dengan tulus ikhlas.

5. Menjaga Penampilan – Lelaki menyukai wanita yang pandai menjaga penampilan agar sentiasa kelihatan cantik, bersih, kemas dan menarik. Penampilan yang baik menunjukkan wanita tersebut menghargai dirinya.

6. Pandai Berbicara – Lelaki tertarik dengan wanita yang pandai berkomunikasi dan boleh diajak berbual. Walau walau topik perbualan yang disukai lelaki berbeza dengan topik kegemaran wanita, wanita tersebut dapat mengimbanginya.

7. Pandai Bergaul dan Menyesuaikan Diri – Wanita yang pandai bergaul dan menyesuaikan diri mempunyai nilai lebih dimata lelaki. Wanita tersebut tahu menghadapi org yang lebih tua dan cara berhadapan dengan orang yang lebih muda. Apabila berhadapan dengan suasana yang baru, wanita tersebut tidak gentar, malah cepat menyesuaikan diri. Dia mudah diajak kemana saja dan tidak kekok samada di bandar atau di kampung.

8. Menghormati Diri Sendiri – Lelaki suka wanita yang menghargai dirinya sendiri sebagai seorang wanita, bersikap sopan dan mempunyai etika.

9. Simpati dan Prihatin – Lelaki suka wanita yang murah hati, mengambil berat, simpati pada nasib yang susah. Sayang pada kanak-kanak dan tidak memilih bulu.

10. Sabar – Lelaki suka akan wanita yang bersabar dan tabah dengan segala ujian yang dilalui. Menjadi idaman setiap lelaki bergelar suami, jika sedang ditimpa kesusahan, datang seorang isterinya yang solehah dan penuh kesabaran, berkata, “La Tahzan! Inna Allaha ma’a na” (Jangan bersedih, sesungguhnya Allah bersama kita). Nikmat mana lagi yang lelaki inginkan selain dari isteri yang solehah?






PS daripada owner blog :)


Agak-agak, kita boleh tak menyempurnakan impian lelaki yang sayang kita ye? Lebih elok SUAMI yang sayangkan kite ye?  Soalan untuk diri sendiri jugak ni.

Semua Isi Hatimu - 3 Suara (3 Voices) by Jac , Ning, Shila

The sweetest prank !!. Love you !

Good evening everyone !
Lame sangat tak on blog..kesian blog..dahagakan entry ye.. alahai
Sory ye..saya agak busy (plus malas pun ade sikit. hihi) nak up entry baru
And malam ni dengan semangat yang cuma 10%, kena jugaklah up satu entry, kesian follower-follower tercinta ;D.
Sayang korang !
mwah.

SO nak cerita sikit lah
Kalau korang tekan previous kat bawah ni, sure korang perasan yang entry sebelum-sebelum ni sedih and sayu jeh bunyinya
Huk Huk
Memang sedih pun
Dahlah banyak keja, banyak benda dalam kepala, siap kena attend pelbagai jenis kursus jauh-jauh, nak harapkan si dia untuk dengar luahan pun tak boleh sbb gaduh besar -_-
Teruk sangat 3 minggu yang lepas
Cakap sikit salah, cakap sikit nak gaduh, cakap sikit ada je yang sakit hati
Itu tak kena, ini tak kena, semuanya tak kena masa ni ! :(
Sampai terasa hidup dah single and single yang berserabut sebab keja kemain banyak menggunung-gunung

And memang bila relationship problems happens, every problems seems bigger than the usual -_-
Such a crazy-chaos weekss..it feels longeeerrrrrrrrrrrr than it should..
Penat , lelah, letih, exhausted
Badan pun cepat sangat longlai

After 3 weeks tak bercakap, tak langsung SMS,
satu hari ni, things getting worstier
Fatah siap cakap nak end this relationship *gulp!*
Tak payah lah cakap perasaan saya macamana masa tu
And dia dah siap bubuh due date bila nak clash

Khamis 22/3/12 ialah hari yg dia pilih untuk end up semuanya
Sedih :(

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Khamis. 22/3/12

Harini macam biasa je
Takde yang istimewa melainkan hati yang sedih
Fatah ada gitau tak jadi datang, so after school terus pegi Alamanda sebab nak releasekan tension
Sebab Fatah gitau datang ke tak datang relationship still has to be end up today
So here it goes, Alamanda lah tujunya
And tengah tengok-tengok kasut, msg Mumu (kwn saya di tempat kerja) masuk
And dapatlah sembang-sembang dgn Mumu dlm hp kejap untuk hilangkan stress

Tengah makan Whooper Jr. kat Burger King, tiba-tiba call masuk
Its Fatah ! *gulp*
Baru nak angkat dia dah letak
Tengok-tengok ada 1 msg received

" Saya ada kat area kuarters awak, Sy bagi awak 15 minit je untuk datang jumpa saya buat kali terakhir. Jika tak, saya akan letak henpon abah awak depan rumah and sy balik terus. "

Terkejut!!! Dada berdebar-debar.
Terus hilang selera nak makan.
Terus jalan punya laju cari mesin bayar tiket and terus cari kereta kat kawasan parking
Tengok jam, aiseh! dah dekat pukul 5 !!
Harap-harap tak jem lah putrajaya
If jem, tak dapatlah jumpa Fatah buat kali terakhir :'((

On the way tu, Fatah msg lagi

"Awak tolong bagi number housemate awak Faezah sekarang !"

*gulp!*
Mesti dia nak bagi jeh phone tu kat Faezah
Takmau !! Nanti awak tak jumpa sy kalau sy bagi number Faez :(

Msg masuk lagi
"5 minit lagi untuk sy tunggu awak Dila ...."

:'(. Tuhan jeh yang tahu betapa berdebarnya saya
Perjalanan masih jauh
Habis semua lampu isyarat saya langgar
Mujur Putrajaya ni jalan tak sibuk so langgar lampu isyarat yang tak banyak kenderaan tu banyak

Msg masuk lagi

"2 minit lagi Dila ..."

Ya Allah..bantulah saya ya Allah...Kau lembutkanlah hati Abdul Fatah Abdul Kadir
Bantulah saya ya Allah
Kawasan rumah semakin hampir
Ya Allah...kalaulah aku boleh terbang je masa ni..masa ni aje ya Allah

Msg masuk lagi

"Kalau awak dah sampai tolong mesej saya. Awak terus naik ke rumah, tunggu saya kat sana"

Alhamdulillah. Sempat jugak saya sampai di rumah sebelum Fatah msg lagi
Terus baca masg, terus naik rumah and dada berdebar tuhan je yg tahu :(
Masuk bilik, letak beg, tunggu mcm org bodoh atas katil, mata dah ready nak menangis

Tok ! Tok ! Tok ! *bunyi pintu diketuk*

Terus saya bergegas pegi pintu and jumpa dia
Ya Allah..kenapalah tiba-tiba terasa Fatah sangat hensem di ketika dia mahu melepaskan saya
Sebelum ni takdelah hensem mcm ni :P
Tapi serius .. wajahnya tenang sahaja.
Saya dah menangis meraung-raung bila dia tengok sy
Serius meraung macam orang nak kena tembak merayu supaya jangan ditembak
Fatah pujuk, suruh sy berhenti menangis, kalau sy tak berhenti menangis, dia akan terus pergi
Pergh! Boleh pulak sy berhenti .. sebab Fatah dah ugut

"Dila, jom kita pergi dinner"

*gulp!* dinner??? Lepas dinner mesti awak nak tinggalkan saya kan :(

"Cepat siap Dila, saya tunggu awak kat kereta"

Zup. zup. zup. tanpa cuci mekap kat muka, tanpa mandi, terus tuka baju kurung kepada baju tshirt
Touch up bedak balik kt muka berminyak tu, and bubuh perfume segelen
Terus keluar rumah, turun bawah pergi kat kereta

Sampai jeh kat kereta, Fatah terus tanya, mana lokasi Tutti Frutti terdekat
And terus saya cakap Presint 15 ada
And Fatah pun setuju
Saya lega
Tapi dalam hati tuhan shj yg tahu betapa saya risau tentang apa yang akan berlaku selepas dinner nanti
Hurm..

Sesampainya di Tutti Frutti Presint 15, Fatah minta tlg sy belikan dia Tutti Frutti, take away
And saya sempat tanya dia, "awak sayangkan saya tak Fatah? "
Dia jawab " awak pergi beli dulu, nanti saya cakap"

Okeh, terus saya masuk Tutti Frutti.
Before this kalau makan TF sure saya amik sikit-sikit jeh, risau harga mahal bila letak atas penimbang
Tapi masa ni disebabkan nak amik hati Fatah, saya bubuh ikut sedap jeh
Siap amik cup sederhana besar, tak pernah saya makan dalam cup medium size, takut mahal
And sy amik dutch choc, TF original, red velvet, coffee and strawberry
Terus g bayar, pergh! RM 30 ! huuu
Takpe, janji Fatah suka

Keluar jeh kedai, cari Fatah, Fatah takde dalam kereta
And tengok-tengok sekeliling tak nmpk pon dia
Takpela, saya tunggu jela dia kat tepi kedai TF, kereta saya pn sebelah kedai je

And nampak je Fatah, terus masuk kereta.
Mula-mula dah nampak Fatah macam sorok-sorok tangan, tapi takdelah perasan apa-apa sebab masa ni ingat nak putus je
Tetiba ....

BUNGA !!!! 

Ahah, Fatah beli bunga
And dia cakap I LOVE YOU lagi
Kussss semangat! cair kuttt.. huuu

:))))))))))
Terus senyum sampai telinga :)))))

And Fatah ajak pegi Wangsa Maju, makan Burger Bakar Seksyen 2 yang gila femes tu
Sy okeh jeh !
Plus, hati saya dah berbunga-bunga niiii haa :)))

Dalam perjalanan, Fatah ceritakan semuanya, drp A sampai Z
Memang dia dah plan nak buat surprise harini kat saya
Memang dia sengaja plan dari awal nak bergaduh dengan saya
Buat-buat taknak tegur
And memang sengaja buat saya sedih supaya surprise dia menjadi

And memang menjadiklah sangat!
huh.
Siap meraung kau depan pintu umah, sabor jelah.

And Fatah memang dah buat satu plan yang sempurna
Dia dah berpakat dengan kawan-kawan saya!
Argh. huhu

Drp mula dia tahu sy ada kat Alamanda
Sebab dia msg Mumu tanya saya kat mana
Padanlah Mumu tetiba msg sy tanya saya kat mana masa saya jalan-jalan kat Alamanda tadi.. heee
And dia ada call Faezah, siap buat plan bagai nak buat surprise kat saya
Dia nak bubuh bunga kat depan pintu sy masa sy naik atas rumah konon kena cari henpon abah yang dia nak pulangkan tu..
Tapi malangnya Fezah harini meeting so plan bertukar
Fatah call Nasriq, (kwn Fatah kat Putrajaya), tanya mana kedai bunga
And kedai bunga ada kat Presint 15 !
Betul-betul sebelah kedai Tutti Frutti !
Ohhh,,itukah sebabnya Fatah ajak makan Tutti Frutti yeee...
Suweett lah mamat ni...eeee. :)

And drp saat ni, semuanya indah-indah jeh :)
Termasuklah terpaksa beratur selama 2 jam untuk makan Burger Bakar pun saya rasa indah
Walapun berpeluh-peluh berdiri 2 jam! Hamik ko..lame benau nunggu

Tu jehlah nak cerita
Kisah betapa bahagianya saya
Kisah betapa romantiknya tunang sy.. err..belum lagi bertunang..insyaAllah ;)

Kat bawah ni nak share gambar jelah ye :)

Enjoyyyyyyyyzzz ! :D

RM 30 !

Kaw Kaw Burger Bakar 

1 km ade kut orang beratur nak beli burger

Penghujung barisan ni tak dapat dikesan kerana terlampau panjangg

Abg yang tukang bakarburger

Yosh abang burger !

Fatah dan triple patties !

Fatah punya patties ! Triple Beef !

Saya punya, double beef with cheseeeee. ^O^

Sumpah sangat terkejut dengan surprise tadi, Terima kasih Fatah! :)

Kalaulah boleh kan..kalaulah boleh

Mulakanlah dulu ucapan mu itu
Kerna aku wanita,
Aku malu, namun aku sudah pun penat menunggu
Aku perlu dahulu tahu adakah kau benar-benar masih perlukan aku
Kau perlu perlu perlu mulakan dulu


Datanglah kepadaku sekarang
Ku akan laju-laju sambut tanganmu, takkan ku lepas lagi
Tapi sebelum itu, kau mesti katakan dulu
Semua-semua yang kau sudah simpan sepanjang lamanya kita tak "bercinta" ini
Ku ingin dengar, semua-semuanya
Apa yang kau lakukan, apa yang kau sedang rindu, apa yang kau sudah bina, dalam selama kau tutup ceritamu daripada aku
Kerana, sungguh aku punya banyak-banyak benda nak cerita, macamana aku rindu, macamana aku jalani hari-hari aku tanpa mu, bagaimana aku menangis menunggu, dan bagaimana aku terpaksa simpan semua-semua yang aku bisa ceritakan tapi kau tak ada di situ ketika aku mahu bercerita
Jadi cepatlah sayang, kau mulakanlah dulu ucapan mu itu....
Malam ini juga, kau harus mulakannya..

Kiranya dia tahu yang aku ............

Kiranya dia tahu yang aku sedang menunggu .......

khabar beritanya dengan penuh kesabaran
senyumannya yang ku sulam dengan titis tangisan
perkhabaran cintanya yang dulu menyalakan gelap malam
rindunya yang mencantikkan hidup yang berharapan





Hanya jika dia tahu yang aku sedang menunggu .........

Bersabarlah dengan dugaan

Sabda Rasulullah S.A.W :
"Manusia yang paling berat menerima dugaan adalah para nabi , kemudian orang soleh , kemudian orang yang mengikut jejak langkah mereka dan demikian pula seterusnya."
(Diriwayatkan oleh al-Tirmidzi)

Setiap manusia sentiasa diuji dengan pelbagai dugaan, cabaran dan ranjau hidup 
Ada juga yang menyebutnya cobaan (P.Ramlee style)
Apapun nama yang diberi, dugaan yang datang sentiasa ada hikmah yang datang bersama-sama

Bagaimana cara utk menghadapi dugaan?

1) Sabar.

Bukan setakat bersabar, tetapi harus banyakkan bersabar. Fikiran perlu positif, perlu waras barulah dapat melihat segala-galanya adalah ketentuan daripada DIA. Tiada apa yang datang drp DIA yang tidak baik. Sabar adalah separuh drp iman. Allah sayangkan umatNYA yang bersabar. Percayalah bahawa setiap kesabaran yang dikorbankan ada nilainya. DIA sentiasa bersama-sama kita dalam setiap dugaan yang datang.InsyaAllah.

2) Muhasabah

Setiap dugaan yang datang tentu ada sebab. Saat dugaan datang inilah kita perlu diam bermuhasabah, fikirkan mungkin ada salah dan silap kita di mana-mana atau dengan siapa-siapa. Jika perlu kita minta maaf,kita minta maaf. Jika perlu kita cepat-cepat baiki kesilapan itu, hendaklah kita segerakan. Dugaan datang adalah supaya kita kembali semula ke jalan yang benar setelah lama kita menyimpang. Semoga dengan bermuhasabah, kita dapat menjadi insan yang lebih baik. InsyaAllah

3) Syukur 

Bersyukurlah apabila dugaan datang. Kerana yang pertamanya menandakan Allah sentiasa sayangkan kita. DIA sentiasa buatkan kita teringat pada DIA. Kerana memang sudah lumrah manusia akan kembali mengingati tuhannya ketika mereka dalam kesusahan. Maka apabila dugaan datang, ALLAH mahu kita kembali mengingatinya. Sudah terlalu lama DIA membiarkan kita dalam keseronokan dunia, dan sudah tiba masanya DIA mahu kita kembali ingat pada DIA maka ketika itulah dugaan diturunkan. Ketika ini kita haruslah bersyukur. Kerana sejahat mana pun kita, DIA sentiasa teringat pada kita dan berikan kita dugaan supaya kita ingat pada DIA sama. 

4) Redha

Redha..perlu sentiasa redha dengan ketentuanNYA. Setiap dugaan adalah takdirNYA. Tentu ada sebab. Tiada apa yang diutuskan oleh DIA adalah tidak baik untuk kita. Kita cari hikmah di setiap sebalik dugaan yang datang. Sentiasa positif, jangan kuat melatah. Perlu tenang, redha, dan barulah kita dapat melihat dugaan yang datang bukanlah satu bebanan, tetapi anugerah dari tuhan supaya kita dapat perbaiki kesilapan. Sama-samalah kita menghayati maksud redha, semoga bermanfaat. InsyaAllah :)

5) Berdoa

Yaa..inilah yang kita PALING PERLU LAKUKAN ! Jangan putus berdoa pada DIA. Sesungguhnya DIA lah penyembuh segala luka, segala duka, bukan pakwe,bukan makwe, bukan terletak pada mana-mana manusia. Berdoalah dengan penuh pengharapan, penuh keikhlasan, biar sampai tikar sujud basah dengan airmata penginsafan, itu yang terbaik. Moga-moga dimakbulkan segala doa . InsyaAllah :')

Something to share at 3.33 a.m :)

~✿>> Kepada Hawa. Biarlah Adam yang mencari sendiri tulang rusuknya yang hilang. Hawa pula, tunggulah dan bersabarlah, tak perlulah kamu yang mencari Adam. Kerana kamu tetap tulang rusuknya yang hilang, dia akan datang mencarimu dan mengambilmu satu hari nanti.

Apa yang boleh kamu usahakan Hawa ialah berdoa agar Adam yang datang itu adalah Adam yang beragama, beramal dengan agamanya dan punya akhlak yang baik. Dengan kata lain dapat membimbing kamu ke jalan yang lurus untuk ke syurga..♥♥

Demam Cupcakes !

Beberapa minggu nan lalu (lalu..lalu..lalu *ada echo sebab terlalu lama* :p)


Kakak senior kat tempat keja belanja satu cupcake
Nama cupcake tu Red Velvet
Sumpah tak tipu sedap gilakk !! :D
Serius sedappp oohh
Beli online kat Facebook Garam dan Gula (errr..ke Gula dan Garam eh..checkla sendiri. heehee)
And weeks after that bermulalah sesi gila mahu kek cawan
Beli cupcakes kat Pasar Malam Putrajaya (rujuk pada entry beli cupcakes tulis header blog tu ;)
Beli cupcakes kat tepi jalan on the way balik kerja
Curik cupcake rumate yang baru balik kelas buat cupcake (tapi tak sedapp..hakhak)
Kirim pada rumate beli cupcake kat online Garam dan Gula lagiiiii (suka sangat!!! XD)
Kejar Cookies Wagon (van pink amat cantik) kat Pasar Malam Putrajaya hari Jumaat

Memang tengah gila kek cawan ni! Huuuuu

PS : Pagi tadi baru makan kek cawan versi kampung iaitu bubuh dalam bekas kertas nipis tuuu..and kek pandan biasa jehhh.. tp name pun cawan kann..belasah jehh.. hehe

Kutip dari Cookies Wagon ;)

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Kisah harus baca jika awak sedang mencintai seseorang :'(

Married or not you should read this...


“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

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